The cox Family tales.: Is that reflection mine?

I recently went to have pictures done with my precious babies.

When I got home and loaded them on the computer I thought I was going to have a meltdown. There on the screen starring back at me was someone I couldn't even recognize.

Now let's get something straight. I've never been real big on weight. I'm pretty comfortable in my own skin.

But the weight I've put on is actually hurting me. I'm uncomfortable. I just kept denying it. I just said I'll just eat better tomorrow, tomorrow turned into next week , next week turned into next month. We live in the third floor of our apartment building and I get so winded by the time I reach the top step. I know this is more than just a little weight, this is an unhealthy lifestyle

I didn't gain a whole lot of weight with my second pregnancy. I gained only 18 pounds. It feel right off after having her. I dropped to below pregnancy weight within a month. The first week of November my aunt had an accident a week before she was schedule to go home from her rehabilitation facility for her knee. I couldn't wait to show her Memphis because she hadn't seen her yet. They admitted her into the hospital but we didn't think anything of it. 2 weeks later we where celebrating her life in a church. I was crushed. I couldn't understand how this could happen. The night after her funeral I went home and stuffed my face! Not to mention my sweet girl cried all the time 24/7 she would cry when she was sleeping. I was exhausted so like hell was I going to cook so I started eating out ALOT. I started packing on the pounds pretty quickly!!!!!

I have a few vices BREAD, COKE and RICE CRISPY TREATS!! Lol. I'm also a foodie. I enjoy food. I love to cook and I'm really good at it. I know these are things I need to give up but it has been so hard! But starting tomorrow I can do this. I need to be here to watch my baby's graduate get married and have their own babies. But if I keep going with this lifestyle it may not happen. So this is my journey I'm starting tomorrow. I can do this I can do this!!!! I'll let you know how my first few days go and what meals I choose to go with. Let's see what giving up my vices is going to do by the end of the month.