The past few months have been rocky. I've shared a little bit of my heart with you all. I feel like I'm finally coming up for air. But tonight things really shifted into prospective.
Sunday I started to feel awful. My throat hurt,chills headache the works. I took some Tylenol and crawled in the bed. By Wednesday I have felt the worst I have ever felt. My husband is on 6's right now so I have no help with the babies so I sucked it up put my big girl panties on and continued on. By midnight Thursday I was so weak I could barley stand. I knew Chris was going to have to call out and help me. I wanted to distance myself from the babies so the wouldnt catch whatever funk I had going on. Chris didn't even blink. He took care of the babies and helped me if I needed anything. He called and scheduled me a doctors appointment and off we went.
We ended up waiting over three hours to be seen. With a baby on a three hour feeding schedule and a growing boy who constantly wants to eat I was ready to scream. But Jack my three year old saved the day. He helped me with Memphis. He kept her calm while we waited he played and played with her and even helped me get her bottle ready for the feedings.
I ended up having to get a steroid shot (thank you Jesus for steroid shots! I am NOT an antibiotic girl. If I can go around putting that into my body I will) and my super hero held my hand. (I'm no sissy when it comes to needles or pain I'm covered in tattoos and had two c-sections lol) but the gesture was still sweet. And in that moment in that doctors office reality smacked me in the face. Hard!
What have I been bitching about and let get to me the past few months. The greatest blessing where standing in that room with me. Making sure I was okay. My son who has a heart of gold. My sweet daughter and my amazing husband. I have so much to be thankful.
I learned along time ago in church that if you didn't tell God what you where thankful for before you laid your head down at night what would you wake up with the next morning?
I wake up to a son who is amazing. He is got such a sweet soul. He is a good brother and all around good kid.
I have a daughter who is strong willed even at 5 months old. She wants to see things and do things! I have a husband who loves me even when I don't deserved to be loved. I have a roof over my head and food on the table.
Just because things have not gone the way I would have hoped they did doesn't mean the blessing still isn't there. Even in a crappy situation we came out stronger than ever. We are blessed.
I think we are all so quick to dwell on the negative and overlook the positive. Good things are all around us. We just have to choice to be in the moment and count the blessings. I'm blessed. Above and beyond. I have a beautiful family that I get to wake up to everyday. A husband who works his ass off. A father who is my biggest cheerleader and bestfriend. Great friends who love me and who I love the hell out of. It may not be an ideal life for some but it is a Damn good life. So I'm going to thank god for my blessing instead of letting the negative bring me down. You only have one life so make it the best life. This year is going to be my year of changes. And I'm adding counting my blessing to that.
Until we meet again-ASH
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