Happy new year... Yeah yeah I know I'm a little late.

I hope everyone had a happy new year and set resouloutions (if you wanted too :)). I started off the new year in bed with the flu... Boo!! My sister came over to the house to help take care of Jack and me and my husband where in the bed the whole day and night. By New Year's Day my poor husband was in the hospital for type A flu. Apparently the flu this year is no joke! We are just now feeling back to our somewhat Normal selves. So I have had plenty of time to think about what I would like out of this year 2014. 

2013 was just such a big year for me. I got my GED and graduated college! How and the heck do you top that lol.

So as me and my husband where in bed trying not to die... I got to thinking when was the last time I actually spent time with my husband?!?!

I've kinda in the last year become one of those obsessed mommas ha! Like I don't go ANYWHERE without my son if I don't have to. He goes to the babysitter twice a week right now because I'm not working. (I'm being picky about where I want to land in my career! Lol) and he goes for maybe 5 hours tops. I just feel like he should be with me and I should not be out and about without him. He doesn't stay the night away from us or even a few hours away on the weekends. So as you can imagine this doesn't make much time for just me and my husband. 

We have been arguing a lot more and just seen kinda distant lately and I talked to my dad about it. (I talk to my dad about everything lol) and my dad asked when was the last time it was just me and my husband. I had to stop and actually think! Then I had to look in my planner to see when it actually was. It has been since September that I had just been me and my husband. I immediately knew then what my New Years resolution was going to be. 

I have become so obsessed with the idea that to be a good mom is to never leave your child, which in reality isnt healthy for Jack or me and my husband. Going out for a few hours every once in awhile will not only make me maybe a little more sane but give my husband the attention he deserves without interruption. And let's Jack know that I'm not always going to be there but I will always come back. 

 

Point being....

My New Years resolution is to have date night with my husband at least once a month and to not feel guilty about it. That it does not make me a bad mother to leave him every now and then. 

I also want to start taking care of my body. Not saying I want to lose weight and blah blah blah but I want to eat healthy and put healthier stuff in my body. No more fast food. No more cokes. 

I also would like to figure out what I want to do with my career and be happy and not settle. I can't decided what part of the dental assistant field I want to be in.. Ortho, pediatrics, cosmetics, oral surgery.... I need to decided and ultimately be happy!

I want to repair friendships with people that are meant to be repaired but also make peace with the ones that just needed to end. I have bent over backwards last year for a lot of people only for them not to show up to this or that or just not be there for me period. And that really is just not worth it. I don't hate anyone.. That takes up to much time and energy. But make peace with the fact that sometimes friendships just end. That's life. 

I want to reconnect with my church. I want to not just talk the talk but walk the walk. God is good! God is merciful.. Why would someone not want to serve him. I want to serve him and ultimately be a better me. 

And the last one... I will steal strive and try to have another baby this year, but when it doesn't happen, I will not beat myself up over it. I will not cry my eyes out. I will pick myself up and realize I have a perfect boy now and if I am meant to have another one I will. And if I don't I want to be okay with that too. 

I know the last one will not be easy by any means but eventually it will be :) 

Again I hope everyone had a great New Years and that 2014 is what everyone hopes and wishes it could be. Love your neighbors, but most importantly love yourself this year!! God bless us all. 

What are you resolutions? 

Until we meet again- ASH