Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Music is my therapy #2

It's music January lol!! Like I said last month I would put up my top 5 favorite songs of the month. It's been a rough month starting it off by getting sick, then losing my aunt. I've been listening to tons of music. It's my therapy and the way I deal with things. I love old music, new music. Pop, country, rock I don't discriminate lol. 

The five songs that have constantly been on play lately has been....

1. ERIC CHURCH- GIVE ME BACK MY HOMETOWN!!! 
     When I heard this song my mouth literally dropped. I have always felt this way about a certain person... Probably always will!!!! and he even mentions the place we went on on our first date!!!!! 

2.THE CIVIL WARS- FROM THIS VALLEY 

3.LANA DEL RAY- YOUNG AND BEAUTIFUL

4.ERIC CHURCH- DARK SIDE
This isn't available on iTunes yet but here it is performed live. 


5.KASEY MUSGRAVES- MISS YOU


You will notice a lot of Eric church!!!

 I LOVE him... No like seriously if you look in my CD player in my car very single one of his CDs including his live album is in there. I have never connected with an artist like I do him. Every single song I have a connection with especially his song Springsteen!!
True story,
See when I was pregnant I would listen to it constantly!! I just really loved that song. And at the time they played it constantly on the radio... Just something about the lyric "funny how a melody sounds like a memory". Because I have always listen to music and like I've mentioned before me and my best friend have a "list" solely dedicated to memories we have with the song. It just hit home.  Anyways I saw eric in concert when I was 2 weeks away from my due date. I don't care judge me!! Lol. But this is true, when we first brought Jack home he never really fused or anything he was such an awesome baby but one day he was two weeks old (I remember this plan as day) I couldn't calm him for nothing I was nervous being a new mom and still healing from my c section and my husband had just gone back to work that I almost went into a panic not knowing what to do for him, then my phone went off and my ringtone at the time was Springsteen he immediately quit crying!!!! When it stopped he started crying again so I played the actual song and he stopped crying the second time and went to sleep!!!!! It was like he knew the song because even before he got into my arms he had probably heard it a thousand times lol.  Even to this day he dances along to it. Even before the words play he gets the biggest smile on his face because he knows it!!!! It's still blows my mind that me and my sweet boy have a song... A song that bonded us even before he got here!!!! It's just magical to me and extremely special. 


Do you have a special song? 

Until we meet again- ASH 

Monday, January 27, 2014

I'll give you...

21 facts about me... Lol. Thanks to a fellow blogger who past this on to me so here it goes...

1. Are you named after anyone? 
Yes I am actually... Funny story my mother was obsessed with "gone with the wind" and she wanted to name me Scarlett my dad put his foot down and said hell no... So I got the name Ashley... After the GUY in the movie lol!! 

2. When was the last time you cried? I don’t cry a lot it takes a lot to make me cry.. But the last time I cried was at my aunts funeral.. And that had been the first time in awhile.

3. Do you have kids? 
Yes I do!!!!!!! I have a beautiful baby boy!!!!!!!!!! 

4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?
I would say so. I care a lot about my friends and go out of my way for them. So I think I would like a friend like me lol... Sounds so conceited lol.

5. Do you use sarcasm a lot? 
Oh lawd yes!! I come from a long line of smartass people. I use it more than I should 

6. Will you ever bungee-jump? 
See I always wanted to when I was younger but NOW I have no want to whatsoever lol... I'm chicken shit now.

7. What’s your favorite cereal? 
Apple Jacks

8. What’s the first thing you notice about people? 
I'm not gonna lie... I immediately look down at someone's shoes!! I know I'm a weird one. And I always look at teeth too!! 

9. What is your eye color?
Green baby!!

10. Scary movie or happy endings?  
Happy endings!! I don't do scary movies!!

11. Favorite smells? 
My son!!! And the perfume Halloween!!! My best friend turned me onto it a few years ago I had never heard of anyone who wore it before her. 

12. Summer or winter? 
Summer!!! Winter can kiss my ass lol seriously I'm over it!!!

13. Computer or television? Computer I guess cause then I can get on Pinterest haha score!!

14. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home? 
California I guess would be the furthest.

15. Do you have any special talents? 
Oh lord I really don't know.

16. Where were you born? 
Nashville, Tennessee born and raised and damn proud of that fact!!

17. What are your hobbies? 
Blogging, shopping! 

18. Do you have any pets?
Nope, but I would love to have a farm with lots of animals one day.

19. Favorite movie? 
I have a ton but the wizard of oz would be number one!! 

20. Do you have any siblings? 
Yes I have a sister I love with all my heart. She is my best friend my rock and my soul mate. 

21. What do you want to be when you grow up? 
Someone my son can be proud of!!

What's a fact about you? 

Until we meet again- ASH

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Party party parrrrtttaaaayyyy.....

So last night we went out to celebrate my sisters 31st birthday!! Let me start off by saying my sister is someone I consider to be my best friend. She knows what I'm thinking when or even before I think it. We finish each other's sentences. We have just always been close but have just gotten closer the older we get. I enjoy my sister and glad she had a great time. We went to dinner and it was fabulous!! It was nice to get out of the house even though I ended up skipping on the babysitter and took Jack along.....
I know I know, I have already broke my New Years resolution but I really did try lol.  Here are some pictures from last night and also my outfit from last night :)


     My beautiful sister. 

         I love my husband!!!

      They make my heart so full I am so blessed. 

        Chuys for cocos birthday dinner! 

      Now for my outfit!!!

TOPS- forever 21
CARDIGAN-FOREVER 21
PANTS- AMERICAN EAGLE LEATHER JEGGINS

And the shoes!!!!!
SHOES- SHI MOTO BOOT 
 
I bought them 3 years ago and maybe wore them a couple times. So glad I got to pull them out and wear them with something!!! They really pulled the outfit together! 

I really loved my outfit last night lol! I felt confident, and felt kinda hot in those leather pants ha!!!! They where fun. And glad I got a night out to wear them!!

Also

      And a better picture of my new red hair!!! 

How was your weekend? Do you have a sibiling that you are close with? 

Friday, January 24, 2014

A change is in the air....

So today I changed up my look... I have had my hair dark since November... It was fun.. But it washed my face out because I have said no way Jose to the tanning bed now. I just wasn't feeling as confident as I would have like to have felt.  So I went from this... 

Me and my sweet husband!! 

WHATS IT GONNA BE........



To this....


Yes friends.... I went Red!!

I'm loving it!!
It makes my green eyes pop and I already feel like I don't look like corpse bride lol! 

This picture doesn't do this beautiful color justice!! Hopefully I'll get a better picture to share later!
I showed my hair stylist this picture and she got it so close to this!! My hairstylist rocks my face. Amie tangerine hair salon, Murfreesboro,TN go see her!!!! Go go now!!!!

Have you done any big changes to make your self feel better and give you a boost of confidence? 

Until we meet again- ASH

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Red lips.... Ugh why not.

Like my last post I pretty much stick to the same makeup routine. But I'm actually going out this weekend... (Gasp with me) so I wanted to spice things up this weekend lol....  But I wanted to practice first... 



Big eyebrows and red lips...
Yes red lips!!
I'm kinda digging it!! And I actually got a new foundation today that I will write a review on this weekend!! 
 But what to wear with this spicy look? 
And there's one more BIG change coming tomorrow? But you'll just have to wait and see what it is :) 

Until we meet again- ASH

Ootd and sotd

Again another delightful day of freezing temps... Have I said enough yet how OVER winter I am lol

Please excuse how wrinkle the top is!! 
 TOP- h&m
PANTS- vigross bought at jcpennys two years ago. 

SHOES- high top converse in black. 

I'm a converse queen! Between those and vans I die for one in ever color and style. 

What's your must have brand?

Until we meet again- ASH 

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Ootd and sotd

So I'm beyond over this whole polar vortex crap!! Like I'm ready for summer!! Dress... Shorts... And less layers!!! 

TOP- ROXY bought from PAC sun
PANTS- American eagle jeggins 


And the shoes are the sneaker wedges that my husband bought for me for Christmas! They are super comfy!

Until we meet again- ASH

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Make-up January!!!


So this month I will tell you all about what makeup I'm loving this month!!! I'm really into contouring right now. I have a huge nose thanks to my dad's side of the family. We all have the same nose and well it's pretty big! With contouring I can make it look smaller... Umm can we say win!!! Lol. 
I usually follow this contouring because it works for me and it's simple. I tried a bunch off Pinterest (yes insert judgement here) and this is the only one I felt wasn't over doing it and could be worn daily. Hey what works for some May not work for everyone this is what works for me.

I haven't been doing my makeup much because I have been staying home with my sweet boy. But when I do this is my beauty go to.

*First I primer my face! 
I have very oily skin so I have learned to primer before so my face doesn't look like an oil slick by noon. 

I use elf mineral face primer. Bought at 
Target 

I love that a) it's cheap like 5.00 at target b) it WORKS and c) it's last for forever seriously I have had this stuff for months!

*2nd- foundation! 
I didn't have to use any back in the day because I had flawless skin. But years in the tanning bed have done my face no justice (I seriously could kick my 16 year olds ass for doing that to my precious face). So I have horrible sun spots that now, need to be covered!  

I use maybelline dream fresh bb in medium/dark tint. Bought at target

I'm not gonna say it's my FAVORITE! So as soon as this is gone I'll probably go on a search for a better one. But it works for right now seeing as I'm not doing my makeup everyday because I'm not going out much right now. 

*3rd- I do my eyebrows.
I love big thick dark eyebrows!!! I don't care if you can tell there are fake lol (not really) but I love thick brows. Leave the tiny brows to the cholas!! Think Megan fox eyebrows.
She is stunning and look at those brows!! This is always my go to when styling mine. 
To achieve that Megan fox brow look in so obsessed with. I use urban decay  eyebrow kit. I love this better than using a pencil to draw them in. Bought at sephora 

I line my brows with the lighter color and then fill them in with the dark. Works like a charm. And stays allllll day and most importantly doesn't smudge or smear!!!!


*4th- I do my highlighting  
Like I said what works for some might not work for everyone but highlighting first helps me contour with the bronzed better. 
I love benefits watts up. It's creamy and in the end is a beautiful color. Bought at sephora 
 I start with my t-zone then the apples of my cheeks and work my way from there. 

*5th-bronzer baby!!!
 I usually start with my nose and the go from there. When I get to my cheeks I usually make a 3 motion starting from my temple down to my chin. But when I get to my jaw bone I make a fishy face and make my bronzer line thicker in that area. 
I use benefit bronzer in hula. I feel like it gives you a more natural color opposed to the more orange color some bronzers can leave you with. Bought at sephora.

*6th- I do my eyes
I'm overly obsessed with the urban decay  pallet Naked 3. I was never a naked girl before this one came out. I don't know the colors never did it for me. But when I saw this one I knew I had to have it. I mean it's stunning! Not a color in there that doesn't work with my green eyes. I'm a huge fan of urban decay and this did not disappoint. 

This picture does not do this any justice. The pinks and corals in this palet are to die for. Seriously just beautiful colors. I bought at sephora. 

*7th-blend it
I love my blender. And it's easy to clean. And it's was only 5 bucks at ulta so I usually buy a new one every month and throw the old one out.
    Blending sponge from ulta. 
 
*last but certainly not last...Mascara 
I live,breath,love mascara!! Even if I don't do full face I NEVER leave out mascara. I always use the blackest!!!!! I like my eyelashes dark!!! 

Revlon lash potion and benefit "they're real". Revlon bought at Walgreens and Benefit I got at sephora as a sample. It has lasted about 2 months because I just wanted to try it and now I'm a huge fan. Will buy when I run out.

I usually do one swipe of the they're real first then I put the lash potion on second for a real eye pop!! 

End result!! Horrible lighting and and my phone don't mix, but you get the idea! 

What are your beauty routines? What's your favorite makeup this month or in general? 

Until we meet again- ASH 




Monday, January 20, 2014

Addiction

This week was a rough week as we said goodbye to my aunt who passed away this weekend of a drug overdose. It was heartbreaking to get that phone call but wasn't a shocking phone call. It's something for years I always knew would come. I really thought I would be prepared but I wasn't. 

Let me tell you about my aunt. She was hilarious! She was stubborn. She was a hard worker. She loved Jesus but could tell you the dirtiest joke you ever heard. She was the life of the party. She was kind. She would give you the shirt off her back.  
And she was a devoted Christian! She loved Jesus and I remember the mornings when I stayed with her always started off with her bible study and coffee.

But my aunt had a horrible drug addiction that she has had for years, yes you read that right! My drug addicted aunt was also a god fearing Christian. 

Addiction- the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.
synonyms: dependency, dependence, habit, problem More
devotion to, dedication to, obsession with, infatuation with, passion for, love of, mania for, enslavement to

See addiction has always run DEEP in my family. We have all battled with it at some point and time. We fought the hard fight. Some of us won but as sad as it is to say... Some lost!

People have a misconception of addiction. Thinking you can only be addict to drugs, and that all drug addicts will steal from you and kill you... But in all reality you can be addicted to anything. Sex,drugs, money.... Or you could be addicting to gasp SHOPPING, shoes, cars, money, FOOD! Lots of things. 

I still to this day have an addiction to shoes. The high I get when I get a brand new pair of shoes is a problem. I love them and back on the day would spend a whole pay check on shoes alone. I've gotten better about it through the years but it's still can be a problem. I know sounds silly right? But for me it was a real problem.
 
When we finally said goodbye to my aunt I cried and my heart broke. I just couldn't understand how this women who has always taught me about strength and to stand up to anything couldn't stand up to her own disease. But it's just that a disease. I will never understand. I wish I could have helped her fight harder. I wish she would have known how worth it she was. 
 During the service something was said that hit the nail on the head about addiction.... 

Although Tanya was a great person. Loyal, kind but yet a pistol. A god fearing, bible reading Christian. Just couldn't get the hook out of her mouth. It always just kept pulling her back. No matter how far out she swam from it... It always in the end pulled her back. 

Wow just wow! I had never heard addiction explained like that but my god how true. A hook you just can't get rid of.

As much as I miss her  I can only pray that she finally found the peace she so desperately tried to find.  

And there is no doubt in my mind she is walking in heaven with the man she loved with her whole heart. 

Until we meet again-ASH

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Ootd.... And SOTD... It's been awhile :)

Boy it has been a rough week and a month of sickness it's seemed. But I was actually able to get out of the house and run much needed errands that have needed to be done for months now!!! 

 Hoodie- roxy I got 2 years ago that I love!!! It's so comfy. 
Pants- old navy sailor pants 
Shoes- toms 

Toms- so comfy 

Today was all about comfort when your out running around with a 19 month old. 

What is your errands look? 

Until we meet again- ASH

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Happy new year... Yeah yeah I know I'm a little late.

I hope everyone had a happy new year and set resouloutions (if you wanted too :)). I started off the new year in bed with the flu... Boo!! My sister came over to the house to help take care of Jack and me and my husband where in the bed the whole day and night. By New Year's Day my poor husband was in the hospital for type A flu. Apparently the flu this year is no joke! We are just now feeling back to our somewhat Normal selves. So I have had plenty of time to think about what I would like out of this year 2014. 

2013 was just such a big year for me. I got my GED and graduated college! How and the heck do you top that lol.

So as me and my husband where in bed trying not to die... I got to thinking when was the last time I actually spent time with my husband?!?!
I've kinda in the last year become one of those obsessed mommas ha! Like I don't go ANYWHERE without my son if I don't have to. He goes to the babysitter twice a week right now because I'm not working. (I'm being picky about where I want to land in my career! Lol) and he goes for maybe 5 hours tops. I just feel like he should be with me and I should not be out and about without him. He doesn't stay the night away from us or even a few hours away on the weekends. So as you can imagine this doesn't make much time for just me and my husband. 

We have been arguing a lot more and just seen kinda distant lately and I talked to my dad about it. (I talk to my dad about everything lol) and my dad asked when was the last time it was just me and my husband. I had to stop and actually think! Then I had to look in my planner to see when it actually was. It has been since September that I had just been me and my husband. I immediately knew then what my New Years resolution was going to be. 

I have become so obsessed with the idea that to be a good mom is to never leave your child, which in reality isnt healthy for Jack or me and my husband. Going out for a few hours every once in awhile will not only make me maybe a little more sane but give my husband the attention he deserves without interruption. And let's Jack know that I'm not always going to be there but I will always come back. 
 
Point being....
My New Years resolution is to have date night with my husband at least once a month and to not feel guilty about it. That it does not make me a bad mother to leave him every now and then. 

I also want to start taking care of my body. Not saying I want to lose weight and blah blah blah but I want to eat healthy and put healthier stuff in my body. No more fast food. No more cokes. 

I also would like to figure out what I want to do with my career and be happy and not settle. I can't decided what part of the dental assistant field I want to be in.. Ortho, pediatrics, cosmetics, oral surgery.... I need to decided and ultimately be happy!

I want to repair friendships with people that are meant to be repaired but also make peace with the ones that just needed to end. I have bent over backwards last year for a lot of people only for them not to show up to this or that or just not be there for me period. And that really is just not worth it. I don't hate anyone.. That takes up to much time and energy. But make peace with the fact that sometimes friendships just end. That's life. 

I want to reconnect with my church. I want to not just talk the talk but walk the walk. God is good! God is merciful.. Why would someone not want to serve him. I want to serve him and ultimately be a better me. 

And the last one... I will steal strive and try to have another baby this year, but when it doesn't happen, I will not beat myself up over it. I will not cry my eyes out. I will pick myself up and realize I have a perfect boy now and if I am meant to have another one I will. And if I don't I want to be okay with that too. 

I know the last one will not be easy by any means but eventually it will be :) 

Again I hope everyone had a great New Years and that 2014 is what everyone hopes and wishes it could be. Love your neighbors, but most importantly love yourself this year!! God bless us all. 

What are you resolutions? 

Until we meet again- ASH