I guess to really get to know me would be to get to know how I ended up with my soulmate!! My husbands name is Chris. Christopher to only me and his mother lol. We have been together for 7 years in Feb and married for two of them in feb as well. our story is no fairytale… actually it took a lot of broken roads to get to where we are now. and the story of us is something I don't really share much...I knew him in high school even though we weren't super close, we still said hello in the hall and if I ever saw him out he always gave me the biggest hugs and would smile ear to ear. He was such a sweet guy, but in my head he wasn't my "type". It wasn't until the summer of 2006 that we really started to hang out. I still had no interest in being his girlfriend, there where a lot of things that we had to take into account that maybe we weren't meant for each other. The more we hung out the more I rebelled against having any feelings for him even though I kinda maybe really liked him. If anyone would ask "do you like him" I would make fun of him. To this day I still for guilty for that even though he knows about it and laughs. Thats just Chris. It wasn't until December of 2006 that we went and rode around, even though that was what we always did, that night was different. The reason it was different was because he took me to look at christmas lights. As I previously blogged I didn't do christmas. But instead of it being painful he had me laughing the whole time. I mean big huge tears rolling down my face from laughing so hard. It was at that moment I knew I more than liked him. I was smitten…I was head over feet in love with him. That scared the absolute living shit out of me!! See before this night I refused to give any guy my heart. I had it broken BAD early on in my teenage years (ha) that I never quite recovered from. So I had the mentality to hurt someone before they hurt me, and never ever fall in love, ever. sure I told guys I loved them but I had trained myself not to believe it. I actually been called a cold hearted bitch by a few and at the time I took great pride in that.Cold hearted to me= No feelings= no heartbreak which in my mind was a WIN!! I was actually told in our marriage counseling class that I don't trust men and do not connect well emotionally. Its still a battle for me to this day to let people all the way in…anyways I'm getting side tracked lol…. Once I knew I had fallen for him I did every thing in my power to sabotage what we had. Like hell was I gonna get my heart broke. And no matter what I did… which I did ALOT of things Im not proud of just to hurt this guy. He never left. He would push back just as hard. My dad use to tell me Chris dug his heels so deep into the ground he was already standing 6 feet under. I just couldn't understand what this overly sweet guy wanted with me. And why the hell could I not run him off lol (I still thank god every night he didn't run) by the middle of January I went on a few more dates with him. Mostly to get my dad off my back because my dad loved him. On valentines day 2007 Chris again took me out. He bought me a couple cds of songs I didn't even know he knew I liked cause I hadn't mentioned it to him . See thats Chris, he paid attention to the little shit nobody else would have cared about, like my favorite song. He took me out to a nice expensive dinner. Nobody had ever done that for me before. It was always Taco Bell and let me take you back to my place kind of guys I had dated. He just always wanted to do whatever he could for me… he still does to this day…. after the night we where inseparable. We went EVERYHWERE together. Although that first two years was HELL!! I again pulled out every trick I could to hurt him. And again the more horrible shit I did the more he would just forgive me. Two years into I finally let up on him. I was exhausted and so was he! That was the year of our first horrible fight!! I said some of the worst things that I know I can never take back…and that I know are still stuck with him. That was when he asked me if I was exhausted yet? Was I done ruining my own heart? That was the fight that he made me realize after all the years I was "hurting" the one who hurt me, the one who hurt me didn't have a clue. The only person I was hurting was me. I was sabotaging the best thing that had ever happen to me. I knew I had to let it go and just love and be loved. Chris would have walked through hell just to be with me (those are his words) Im tearing up now just thinking about it. I remember being told thats god makes your spouse specifically for you.There is no doubt in my mind that he was made for me. He has patients of steal. And I never question if he loves me because if he didn't he would have hit the road along time ago. I always hear how people met and they are such special romantic love stories. Then when I tell people mine they just sit and stare. It was not an easy road. Our great days are just that great and we work really hard to make it work. But our bad days are that BAD. we still fight, and when we do we make the devil blush. But one thing has remained the same for almost 7 years is that we love the HELL out of each other. Noone thought we would last and hell I honestly didn't think we would either. But the day of my wedding was the happiest day of my life. I never got nervous because I knew there was not another person on this planet for me. I giggled so much my face hurt so bad the next day I could barely move it. Nobody could be as patient with me as my husband. none would have stuck around through my bullshit. It wasn't an easy road to find him, and it wasn't an easy road once I did. But the road has always at the end of the day been worth it. At the end of some days he is the only thing I like about me…. see Christopher is kind. He is laid back but uptight at the same time. Christopher works his ass off. He is so funny… and he has a laugh that is funnier than any of his jokes, its contagious and makes everyone around him laugh. He is loyal. He would give you the shirt off his back if you needed it. He is smart. He is so much more than I deserve. He broke down my walls and showed me that I was worth being loved. We are far from being perfect, but we don't pretend to be. We have our faults.And I know our story is anything but pretty. And we have tons of things to work on. But I thank god at the end of the day he gave me someone worth fighting for.
what is you and your spouses story? how did y'all meet?
until we meet again- ASH
That night drive in December when I knew I was head over heels for him
Finally official Feb,14,2007
A moment my sister caught. To this day still my favorite picture. 2008
One of our maternity pictures. A candid picture our photographer caught. It's my favorite out of all of them.
Second best day of my life! My wedding day Feb,25,2012
Our wedding party! We consider these beautiful people our family. We have been blessed with some amazing people in our lives.
Our love started a beautiful family. We thank our lucky stars for our baby Boy.
He is the best thing I like about me.
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