Warning: sappy momma moment

Last night as I lay in bed after rocking and telling my boy how much his momma loves every inch of him it donged on me that I'm getting ready to tell my sweet boy next month happy SECOND birthday! Where did the time go? I can still remember the first time I felt him kick. I remember finding out that I was going to be a momma to a boy. But what I really remember was when they placed that sweet little 7 pound baby in my arms. That sweet little face. 

See.. I never wanted to be a mother.EVER. When I took the pregnancy test I cried and cried out in horror. How could this be happening to me. I had been with my husband (boyfriend at the time) for 5 years prior and we had always been so careful on top of me being on the depo shot. But there I was pregnant. 

I had hands down one of the easiest pregnancies. I actually LOST my appetite the first three months. I would drink a boost shake a day to make sure baby got all the nutrients he needed. I never craved anything odd. And I never over ate. I gained 17 pounds all together most was water weight. It wasn't till I had to have a c-section that things went a little down hill for about a month (will touch on that later). 

But here I am a momma and I love every second of it. I have birth to what is probably the happiest baby on earth. Even when he was born he didn't really cry. To this day he still doesn't. Don't get me wrong that kid has his moments but for the most part he is so calm and laid back. He is loving. He is got such a sweet nature about him. He wouldn't hurt a fly. He loves to just be. I believe god knew what he was doing when he gave me that boy cause ultimately he saved me life. The things I have accomplished I. The last two years has been soley for him.  I would put my life on the line for him if I had to. He's my baby boy. My life wouldn't have as much meaning with out him by my side. I don't leave him to go out on the weekends. I actually can't remember the last time I went out and left him home. (Yes I know that was my New Years resolution needless to say it ain't working out to well) 

. My fun is being with him. 

It makes me sad to watch him turn another year older but also makes me proud to watch him grow and grow. Everyday is a new adventure and everyday he teaches my heart something new.

Fresh out the gate :) 7 pounds 21inches. Our sweet boy had arrived.

Big Jack meeting little Jack. It was an honor to name my son after my father.

I couldn't stop staring at him. I was terrified I was going to break him lol 

Our first feeding.

When he finally found his feet. Utter shock. 

6 month pictures by the wonderful mikasha Clark photography (check her out if you live in Nashville) 

 Our bond has been unbreakable since day one. 

First birthday. Proud parents! 

1 year photo shoot! (Thanks Amie)

 

My stud muffin

Silly boy 

First hair cut!!! (Again thanks amie) 

 My weakness is his smile!!

I had waited all my life for a void to be filled in my life. I had searched for it for years. Filled it up with crap that just never seemed to fit. Then he came along. And I finally felt whole. They make me whole. 

Untill we meet again- ASH