Music month June edition #7

Welcome to June loves! It sure has been one one rainy month. But it also been a month of brand new music! Linkin park put out a cd!(my soul band ha) and Lana del rey did also (my extreme girl crush) So here are my favorites songs of this month! I hope everyone has enjoyed this month as we head into July!!! 

1. WORDS ARE WEAPONS- SEETHER- this song! I can't even put into words how much I love this song!!!

2. WEST COAST- LANA DEL REY

3.PRETTY WHEN YOU CRY- LANA DEL REY 

4.LINE IN THE SAND- LINKIN PARK

5.TEE SHIRT- BIRDY

That does it for this month loves!!

Until we meet again-ASH

Another month another eight.

It's June sweet loves. The sun has been shinning bright and the weather for the most part has been beautiful. I just love summer. And here is to another month with another 8 facts about me. Don't forget to share yours with me. 

1.if anything ever happens to me and Chris at the same time god forbid my son is actually willed to our two bestfriends not our family's :/

2. I love to cook and I'm actually really good at it.

3. my iPod is one of the most random things on the plant.  I swear it's the only time elvis,2 chains, linkin park and eric church will all be at the same place ha!

4. I already have my big dirty 30 birthday blowout and Vegas already planned lol. And it's two years away!

5. I read the fault in our stars 3 times in 4 days!!!! It's that damn good and have never read anything like it and probably never will again.

6. I could spend all day watching anything military related and will probably cry my eyes out at every time. Those two always seem to go hand in hand.

7.I'm still friends with the guy who completely shattered my heart

8. I refuse to eat those microwave meals!!! Fake food that has been sitting in an oversized freezer for god knows how long only for you to take it home and heat it up for 5 mins scares me lol!

Until we meet again-ASH

Love yourself!!!!!!!

My body has been skinny and it's has been fat.

My body is 28 years old. 

My body has hugged some of the greatest people I know and love.

My body has jiggled when laughing with some of the funniest people I know. 

My body has layed on the beach on some of the funnest trips I will never forget.

My body has birthed a child.

I will never be ashamed of my body. I will never be a gym rat.

I enjoy food!

I eat healthy and I eat junk.

But at the end of the day I love my body and proud of the accomplishments I have achieved with this body and mind. 

It may not be what "others" deem beautiful. 

But I do. I love that my thighs are a little thick and are missing the blessed thigh gap.

I like my legs even though they are no Carrie underwoods.

I love my big butt because I got it when I got pregnant.

I enjoy my wide hips because they cradled my child!

I love me body! 

So why are women nowadays being forced into a cookie cutter mold of what "pretty" is. Who wrote the rules on a prefect body? What makes a body perfect?

By society standards I'm deemed and looked at as obese! Yes obese! 

But I'm perfectly healthy. I'm the only one in my family without high blood pressure or high cholesterol. I have no problem walking long distances or playing with my son. 

I stand 5'2 and in suppose to weigh between 115 and 130.... 115?!?! Seriously? I use to weigh 130 in high school and can you believe I use to feel so fat? I was never comfortable in my skin. But I was far from fat! I had double d sized boobs and a tiny waist in high school I wore a size 8 jeans but I still felt like a hippo! But why? I look back at the pictures of me and think.. You had a body to die for! But by society standards that was not the Perfect body!

So as I got older I did some soul searching and learned it's not up to another person to make me feel pretty, it's up to me to feel gorgeous in my own skin. 

Now don't get me wrong there are times when I look at myself in the mirror and think you can't wear that, you look to fat! But then I get to thinking by who's standards am I to fat to wear it? Why can't I rock that outfit.  So I do! Who cares what other think? I love how I look shouldn't that be all that matters? 

We have got so caught up in body shaming that we have got to get ahold of ourselves and STOP! I'm guilty of it to. But shouldn't it be about a persons personality? Weather they have a good personality or not? Why does the size of their body matter? If someone is "heavy set" are you not going to he there friend? Do they not deserve to be loved as you? So why do we continue to do it!!

We have to get out of our heads and love our bodies for what they are. Just recently I was bathing suit shopping and thought you can't buy a two piece! But why can't I? If I feel comfortable in it why can't I rock it? At the end of the day I have to love it and that's all that should matter. If I feel comfortable why shouldn't I wear it? We are all so deranged on what beauty is now. It's not about what a person looks like. It should be about who they are. What they stand for. What's there moral character. Instead of saying ewww she's fat. 

I'm going to make it a priority this year to love my body no matter what size it is. And focus on being HEALTHY! If healthy is 190 pounds so be it. I love my body for what is has done why not love others as well? I will stop calling myself fat on days when I don't feel to good about myself and instead say I am a good mother. Or I have pretty eyes or my hair is really pretty. Focus on a positive instead of a negative. 

lOVE YOURSELF 

Until we meet again- ASH

May favorites

Yes I know it's June! Can you believe it? May flew by with no hesitation. I had to double check the date today. It was a packed month full of two birthdays and two jobs so I haven't had much time to shop but still got to grab a few things so here are my May favorites :) 

Skull clips purchased off etsy. 

I was so excited when I found theses like I screamed. I got even more excited when I got them in the mail!!!! They are beautiful and weird which you know I like! I get tons and tons of compliments on them. 

Honey bronze purchased from the body shop.

I came across this beau on Pinterest do I immediate started doing research on it. I looked through tons and tons of reviews but decided to go off my own. It smells like a beach lol. It reminds me of just that tan skinned summer time beach smell. And the payoff is amazing. Defiantly worth the purchase.

Anastasia brow wiz in auburn. Bought at sephora 

This!!!!!! Talk about heaven in a pencil. I'm very into big thick eyebrows so I've always use the powder version for urban decay but in November went red and loved my hair red so much that I have stayed that was so I needed something to match my hair and the urban decay was just too dark. So I did my research and came across this gem. I've always shyed away from pencil but decided to take a gamble on this and so glad I did. It's not thick like say a lip liner pencil is. And it really fills in my brows without looking like to much. And it's just enough auburn to make my red hair look like that may just be my natural hair color. 

Contour pallet bought from amazon. 

The colors aren't overly pigmented but they get the job done if I want just an easy contour and not something so dramatic. The only con is this pallet seems impossible to keep clean! But it was literally like 4.00 it's defiantly worth it if you want just a suttle contour.

Voluminous original mascara by loreal bought at Walgreens

Holy smoke this stuff is amazing! It makes my lashes really full and the color pay off is very black. And it's pretty inexpensive! It's a must buy!

Quantum riveting reds bought at Sally's

Like I said I've gone red and I've always had problems with the red fading long before my 6 week hair appointments but not anymore. My hair has been staying vibrant red thanks to this product so ladies if you have red hair buy this! I swear you and your wallet will thank me later :)

And sadly that's it! Like I said this was an insanely busy month and I didn't get to hit my ulta and sephora like I'm use to :( June though will be better and calmer lol. And I've already found some goodies I can wait to share with you guys! 

Until we meet again- ASH